FAIL.

So, we went and bought a transition strip...we even took a sample of our floor with us and it seemed to match well. But when we brought it home, it became clear that it was just too red for our floors. So, back it goes to Lowe's, and we'll try Home Depot.

Justin refused to go to the gym with me. We might as well just cancel his membership, because as much as I've told him that I support him in all his endeavors, and I NEED his support with the gym, he will go along with me maybe once a month. Yes, you sense a little bitterness there.

Wanna hear how else I'm bitter? I've still been going to the gym close to 5 days a week for the past month. I've been busting my butt. On days that I don't make it to the gym, I try to work in SOME physical activity, like going for a walk. Some days I do both I just pulled out my summer clothes, excited to try things on since last summer I was a full size bigger than I normally wear. Last winter, I was about two sizes bigger. I figured that with my stellar gym attendance, something would probably fit. Yeah, none of them fit. I went to Old Navy to buy a pair--finding my size completely depressed me. I'm bigger than ever--up another size from winter! I then proceeded to cry for the next hour until I got home, and then cried some more until I fell asleep. It is SO frustrating. I'm trying--even though I don't have support, I'm trying on my own and I'm doing more than I ever have since high school, and I just can't even see the progress. If anything, it feels like my clothes are getting TIGHTER. Why put out all this effort for no results? Sure, I've lost 10 pounds in three months...so WHAT. The folks on Biggest Loser can lose that in a week. The bottom line is that I'm still not happy about my body at all, and I don't even remember the last time I felt GOOD about myself.

After my pity party, I figured that I'd go for a run around the neighborhood for the C25K, and I've determined that I can't run outside, as much as I'd like to. My allergies are just too bad. I stopped at about the 15 minute mark when I began to break out in hives and have an asthma attack. This frustrates me so much too. I can do it in the gym easily! I'd rather run outside, but nooooo. Figures.

I'm trying to decide what to do...I've already met my workout quota for the week, so maybe I just need to call it a day. OR, when we go to the movie tonight, I could hit up the gym by the movie theater afterwords...I'm just not sure that I'll do much better there either. With the day I'm having, I've sort of lost my motivation.

Sorry for the pity party post today guys...it's just been one of those days.