Pregnancy Post: Week 16

I am now either 16 weeks or 16 weeks, 6 days, which means that either by tomorrow, or by next Thursday, I will be considered 4 months pregnant. I never heard back from the doctor about my NT scan, but that's a good thing because they forewarned me that if everything comes back within normal limits, they will wait to talk to me about it until my next appointment, which is August 4th (Happy Birthday to my brother!).

As far as what's going on with the baby, Parent's Connect says: "Your baby is already mugging for the camera as she practices all sorts of facial expressions, such as squinting, yawning and grimacing, which will come in handy when you introduce her to pureed spinach...Your baby's heart now pumps about 25 quarts of blood per day, and she hasn't even seen Orlando Bloom yet! Also, her eyes are now locked and loaded at their final destination, facing forward rather than to the sides. (Whew!)"

In terms of fruit/vegetable size comparisons, I've heard that the baby is now about the size of an avocado. I do believe we have both a boy and a girl name picked out. I have no idea when we'll be doing the "big" ultrasound, so those are on hold for now....need to just get through the next appointment first.

Honestly, this has been a tough week for me. First of all, it's 110 degrees. Seriously y'all, that's just unbearably hot. And the air conditioner in the court house has been broken, so it's really, REALLY unbearably hot. Oh, and did I mention that one of the other attorneys that I work with in court was out sick all week....with SWINE FLU. Seriously.

And that's really just the tip of the iceberg. I've been an emotional mess lately, because the only real symptom I've got going on is some occasional tiredness and some serious heart burn. I should be thankful, because I was previously in symptom hell, but it's hard to wake up one day feeling like a light switch has been turned off and all your symptoms are GONE. And I'm not at the point where I'm feeling the baby (yet). AND I haven't seen the baby or heard the heartbeat since about 12 weeks. My mind immediately goes to "But what if something is wrong?!?!" even though I know the chances of that happening are slim. It's still something that I deal with all day long, every day. No amount of praying or positive thinking seems to help. Justin is a great help and encourager when I get overwhelmed. Although, I think that he thinks I'm insane...as I'm bawling about not having any symptoms, I have a feeling he's thinking, "You have lost your mind...if this isn't a symptom, I don't know WHAT is!"

Also, there's been the added stress of thinking about how we'll make this work monetarily. Since we weren't actually trying to conceive, we didn't really have a plan about this. As I mentioned, we looked into refinancing our mortgage through the Making Home Affordable plan that Obama passed. We were told that we won't be able to refinance because the value of our house has dropped $30,000 and we don't have enough equity. I thought the whole point of this plan was to help those whose house values had dropped refinance, but apparently not. So basically, if I don't work we won't be able to afford to live. If I do work, we won't be able to afford to live, because almost all of my paycheck will be going to daycare. Maybe I'm being a little dramatic, but it's a frustrating cycle.

Also, we're headed off camping for Justin's sister's wedding this weekend, and I'm a little nervous. I'm uncomfortable sleeping in our BED...I am not sure how well I'll handle sleeping on the GROUND.

In other news, I got The Perfect Pregnancy Workout, which I actually enjoy. Even though it reminds me how NOT flexible I am. A few months ago, I would have thought it was easy peasy, but now, it's hard work!